Blue Days, Black Nights : A Memoir

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Summary: Excellent First Person Narrative
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"Blue Days, Black Nights: A Memoir" is Ron Nyswaner first published book. And an excellent one, at that.

His name may sound familiar as he is the Academy Award nominated screenwriter of the film "Philadelphia". This is not, however, a star filled, tell-all Hollywood tale. Quite to the contrary. This is a human story, told with brutal honesty.

Following the critical and commercial success of "Philadelphia", Mr. Nyswaner went through a personal time of turmoil and pain.

This excellent autobiography tells that story; an inner story of pain and guilt, as much as an autobiography about living in a time when not all the answers are as cut and dry as we might like. Where children become parents to their parents, where love has a price tag, where feeling good can be purchased, but being happy and content cannot.

Written with clear language and daring insight, this book was a real page-turner for me.

The story begins with an ending, and it's not giving away anything to say that this is a brilliant way to begin this journey with Mr. Nyswaner.

And it is a journey, of the heart and soul, into addiction, of both the mind and body. The fact that Mr. Nyswaner came out on the other side of such a traumatic time in his life and has been able to write about it, speaks volumes about human spirit, about coping and loving.

This autobiography covers so many topics, but does not feel preachy or forced.

It is a genuine look into a world most of us will never visit.

It's an excellent read, and highly recommended.

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Summary: Sex, Drugs and Screenplays: An Unglamorous Life
Review: A detached examination of a period in Nyswaner's life cobbled together for convenience.

Nyswaner's pain is sincere. But the same substance abuse and depression that consumes and destroys lives leaves the author merely wounded with physical and emotional scars. He describes his downward spiral with mental clarity not afforded to the afflicted, but rather to an observer. His account only goes as deep as his scar tissue.

We're left to ponder (and hope for) Nyswaner's progress. Perhaps it will be in his second (or would this be his third?) act in which we're given the opportunity to gain greater emotional insight into this truly talented author.


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Summary: Hits Very Close To Home
Review: As a middle-aged gay man myself in the throes of a self-destructive meth and coke habit, this book hit very close to home. Actually I read it during a long party of partying with meth (since I wasn't going to sleep, I had to do something). Books like this always catch my eye, ever since Elizabeth Wurtzel's "Prozac Nation"...maybe because I struggle with addiction myself, I can certainly relate to everything in this book, except for maybe the hiring the hustler part. I've had more than my share of lost weeks and weekends with beautiful strangers, and have gone through many of the same situations, which are both horrifying and enlightening. I don't view books like this entirely as entertainment...I think there is a message as well. For me, that message is unfortunately too close to home, though I enjoyed the read very much. I highly recommend this book, and can only hope this is also made into a movie.

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Summary: Honest, riveting and thought provoking memoir
Review: In this autobiographical memoir of his "personal demons" ... primarily substance abuse and tendencies toward self-destruction largely due to a dysfunctional childhood ... screenwriter Ron Nyswaner ("Philadelphia", "Soldier's Girl" and others) concentrates on his largely one-sided relationship with Johann, a rather unique but somewhat mysterious European stud he met at a hustler's bar.

Johann fulfills much more than a sexual need for Ron. The sex provides an excuse to do drugs to "get in the mood," and both fulfill Ron's emotional need to lose control and be dominated by outside forces, a throwback to his childhood. While Johann originally scoffed at Ron's drug use, he eventually was drawn into the escapist world the author wanted for both of them, with fatal results.

The book deals honestly with the author's addictions and compulsions, including the best analysis of the immediate and after-effects of crystal meth I have ever seen in print. The reader can easily see that the author's behavior and mindset changes dramatically when with the hustler, even before drugs are consumed, as compared to his business trips to Los Angeles or New York City, at home at his country retreat in Woodstock NY, or on his increasingly-frequent pilgrimages back to Pennsylvania to care for his parents in their rapidly failing health. We get the sense that the author both looks forward to and dreads his drug-hazed "vacations" with Johann, and deludes himself into not really thinking about what he gets out of these encounters, whether it is the drugs, Johann's (often platonic) company, or why they both seem to be a necessity in this stage of his life. Further disappointments in his life lead to self-mutilation and a botched suicide attempt, as the book depicts how difficult a journey it was ... and continues to be while he is in recovery today.


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Summary: A wrenching unforgettable journey of love and destruction
Review: My hat is off to screenwriter Ron Nyswaner who makes a sterling debut as a novelist here. He has written a breakthrough book. He gives us a picture of gay life that is open and without anguish, is informative, liberating, and most importantly one not just for the gay reader. This reader, who happens to be straight and whose love life has never been a bed of roses, found this book fascinating, one not to put down once picked up. It has a universal theme, that of obsessive love, an update, complete with drugs, of Of Human Bondage by Maugham. The characters jump off the page. They are as memorable as any you'll find. The days may be blue, the nights black, but Nyswaner makes you laugh while the misery unfolds.

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Summary: Searing candor, with wit and style
Review: Ron Nyswaner's first book, this memoir, is an instant classic -- He hides nothing yet reveals all with wit and style. While his story is tragic and almost fatal-- he in the end lifts himself and the reader to a new level of understanding. A harrowing ride on the wild side, Nyswaner's book opened my eyes to another world and the facets of a complex man and his attraction to danger and enigmatic men. I went with him all the way, and am exhilarated by the unique literary values -- the bible for painful pleasure.

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Summary: The real thing
Review: This is a terrific book about the author's intense involvement with a hustler, their shared obsession with crystal meth, and the devastating ending to the story. The writing is brilliant, fast-paced, spot-on. I wrote a book about hustling several years ago (Assuming the Position), and this often felt like a kind of companion book to mine, a similar story from the other side of the bed. I'm proud of the author, and I don't even know him.

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Summary: In "TOP 10 BOOKS OF 2004" - Frontiers Newsmagazine
Review: Through prose tight as the zip lock on so many glassine baggies, all at once this tale of crystal meth and cash for sex turns into a love story. The search for affection, the search for connection with self--this memoir from a prominent gay Hollywood screenwriter proves that sometimes the personal life of an author is more compelling than the works of fiction he creates.

Thanks to Ron Nyswaner for sharing himself with the reader(s). _Blue Days, Black Nights_ is my favorite book of the year!